Zellfire’s ritual journal notes
I expected the Khajiit in Reaper’s March to be more concerned about my shadow-cat mount, given how strongly they react to their corrupted Dro-m’Atha kin, but no one seems to care – they seem to recognize their enemy Namira is not part of it. The level of nuance in their understanding has surprised me several times, and not just in this. It is possible that I have underestimated the strength and complexity of Khajiit magic.
I certainly did not expect them to ask me to help complete an extensive ritual to choose the new Mane. Winning over Ayrenn and gaining access to the Altmer royal court was the largest coup I anticipated. Nonetheless, the new Mane now considers me a friend and owes me a debt. I’m sure Divayth would be pleased, if I told him.
And I find I’m missing the arrogant bastard, but when I think about contacting him, all I want to do is yell and argue. Have to wait longer until that passes.
Apologizing is in neither of our natures, but I still do not understand why he reacted so badly – looking back, it seems it was the Dro-m’Atha mount that set him off. Makes no sense; has to be something else going on in Tel Fyr – why should it bother him more than it does the Khajiit?
They are calling me “Hallowed” now, as a title. It is… oddly touching. As aware as I am that having the new Mane indebted to me will no doubt be useful in the future, I must admit, here if nowhere else, that’s not why I did it. It was enough in the moment to follow the path to its end, and enjoy the satisfaction of fulfilling that purpose. I do not generally put much stock into prophecies and sacred titles or duties – they are constructs – but… well. I will repeat that there is more to the Khajiit magic and beliefs than I first suspected. What I used to see as an obsession with the moons is actually a rich and powerful system.
Another surprise: I am nearly certain that Azura has become involved in my affairs. I’ve suspected the Prince’s presence a couple of times since I summoned the Dro-m’Atha mount, but I am certain I felt it during the Moon Hallowed ritual, even though I have no proof. It is interesting that I have caught “her” interest; we have not had many dealings in the past, though I know Divayth sometimes does. I have never thought much about Azura, but given what I’ve seen, I can imagine it would be… interesting, at least.
It was incredibly satisfying to kill Javad Tharn; such a delight to find he was behind the attacks in Reaper’s March and the Mane. I had to work with Abnur last week, and his continual, petty insults get under my skin. I should have killed him when I had the chance, despite what Divayth wanted.